chris_warrior | in which there are good holidays.

in heavy contrast to the General World Crappiness, my holidays were quiet, warm, fun, and soaked in sugar. literally; i have been eating way too many sweets, and am trying tor rein myself in and go cold-turkey again today. stepping on the scale this morning for the first time in four days or so was quite the wake-up call.

i turned 47 without much fanfare. i saw Star Wars: The Last Jedi, with 5/7 of my family. i decorated my birthday cake (as per usual). we ate birthday cake. we played cards. it's almost as if my birthday/holiday routine has returned to its normal 'set point', just as it finally did after i left my ex-husband, and after Joshua died.

we did attend Mass on my birthday, as a family (well, minus one of my brothers, who isn't terribly religious and was fighting a cold to boot), because my mom couldn't get the Mass on my nephew's actual anniversary. honestly, we should be buying the 21st anyway, since my nephew was on life support for two days with no hope of coming back to us. nothing is going to take away the memory of that awful night thirteen years ago.

my elder nephew and i saved the world (Pandemic), first from a four-epidemic outbreak and then a very intense six-epidemic outbreak (which we won by the skin of our teeth). the family, in various combinations, played a lot of Pitch. i'm sad they didn't hang in one more day, but they stay at my brother's house and (i gather) 5 nights on his guest bed is enough.

i did spend most of my Christmas evening alone in my room (well, cuddled up with Brigid on my lap) watching movies and finishing a video game, but that was almost entirely due to my utter disinclination to watch NBA basketball with the rest of my family and not being tired of them. a tiny bit of it was wanting to finish the damn video game i was working through so i could start a new one.

now i'm gambling that bargaining with myself - that i can only play Dragon Age on days i don't consume sugar - will help get my addiction back under control. :D

hope everyone reading this had wonderful holidays; if they weren't wonderful in ALL aspects, i hope they were wonderful in SOME aspect. so much sun here today, though it's incredibly windy and i'm not sure about going to snowshoe (which was something i was considering). so, hey, the light is returning, at least. darkest day is behind us.

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I hope the New Year's weekend is just as peaceful and fun.

:-)

awww, and yours as well!!

did you end up doing some family time yourself? or quiet contemplation time? some of both?

i think my New Year's is going to end up me and my cat LOL

I actually have a date for New Year's...only the 2nd time since my husband died. It takes a lot of pressure off of going out, I've noticed.

I did end up with family time, both blood and chosen. The snow made for a much more stressful weekend and holiday than planned, but its done now. I'm finally unwinding a bit from the depression I've been in since Halloween.

Just in time for anxiety to kick in and start overanalyzing all the "mistakes" I made in the last year.

The gods help us all from brains that run too fast and think too much.

my friends keep telling me they are't 'mistakes', they're 'character development.' ;) though i get the End of Year Recriminations Day: i like to review where i fell down, too. and i'll probably have a post, because i find having accountability helps me make changes if i need to make them.

yay date! i hope you have a fun night! :D

Snowshoeing is a great antidote to the winter blahs. :)
And as for sugar--I don't know what to do with the ten tons or so of baked sweeties my sister gave me. I am loathe to give it away, but jeez she knows I only eat that stuff rarely, and almost never buy it. *fights temptation to inhale vegan shortbread with chocolate chips*

can you freeze everything and eat it responsibly, one serving as a treat every few days/weekend (whatever "rule" works for you) until it's gone? cause if you can, i still think that's the best way to live lol. in that scenario, you'd prove you are no where near as addicted as i am!

that's my *goal* - to get to a place again where i can carefully and deliberately choose the ONE thing i want, and then back off again. i did it some of the summer, and i've done it in the past, so i'm hopeful. but after a binge i need to go cold turkey again. :D

if you're post-binge, and you can resist the freezer, i think saving it all and eating it slowly is a great plan. if you can't resist it in the freezer, i suppose you can bring it to work and be a hero :D

JUST DON'T MAIL IT HERE (lol)

it's been way too windy here to snowshoe the past two days, and it's gonna be damn cold for the next few, but i'm hoping next week. :D i'm still not acclimated (i'm weak!) so i really want it to be freezing-ish or better. how cold can it be and you'll still go out?

That's exactly what I do--I stuff *everything* in the freezer until it's mostly forgotten, then I parcel it out. Sometimes the vegan pierogi last until almost next Xmas. ;-)
But good gawd the temptations! Especially the shortbread pieces, which are actually audible on occasion. ;-)

LMAO! i can hear it, a tiny "Eat me! Eat me!" coming from your freezer :D :D

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