chris_warrior: (the good fight)


whelp, i'm not sure what i expected, overall, from Covid 19.

(whoah, did that sound like the opening line to a review, or what?)

i'm not sure what i expected from SARS Co-2, but i think i expected it to be way less like a middling flu/bad cold, and more like something... 'new'? i have to admit, the order in which the virus attacks - and thus the symptoms it engenders - IS new, for me. i mean, this is my first bout with it, despite my rather hazardous profession. i'm completely vaxxed, but only once-boosted. as soon as i started reading about BA4 and BA5, i thought about racing to Kinney's and grabbing a booster, but-

(SWING AND A MISS, STRIKE ONE)

honestly, i'm OK with this (well, what choice do i have, but i mean... i was due, and others have had it worse). the friend i went to the movie with on Sunday did NOT catch it (so far, KNOCK ON WOOD) and my Wednesday client will probably know soon if she's out of the woods. my mother - despite having to be repeatedly lectured - has given me space and is not complaining of a sore throat and vicious fever, so maybe we'll catch a break there? i had to cancel a client yesterday and have decided to cancel clients tomorrow even if i test negative because i just don't want to risk anyone and i can probably reschedule them pretty easily.

i'm also still sick, albeit a HELL of a lot better. to whit:

Wednesday ~ 6am: what the hell is this sore throat? this is weird
Wednesday ~ 10 am: OK, test is negative. must be from my crying jag yesterday
Wednesday ~ 3 pm: (takes temperature) WHOAH. WTF?
Wednesday ~ 9 pm: can i die now? (Now featuring: Sinus Pain!)
Thursday ~ 1 am: no, seriously (The Return of Sore Throat)
Thursday ~ 5 am: (having monitored temp every hour or two, it's down a degree on average) OK, f*cking finally.
Thursday ~ 8 am: OK, i'm not just sitting the f*ck around. i got stuff to do.
Thursday ~ 9 am: or maybe i'll just sit in front of the computer and play with video
Thursday ~ 3pm: why can't i sleep? oh, fever is still 100.6? Fair. Eat? what? uh...
Thursday ~ 9 pm: we're DOING this sleep thing. you hear me?!?!
Friday ~ 2 am: or, maybe not.
Friday ~ 5 am: hey! fever's down to 99.2! WEED THE GARDEN
Friday ~ 8 am: WTF was i thinking?
Friday ~ 10 am: OK, i need to de-Covid my room to the best of my ability
Friday ~ noon: now i need to just sit here for a bit. quietly.
Friday ~ 3pm: let's eat something.
Friday ~ 5 pm: sorta. let's uh, hang that laundry, though.
Friday ~ 9 pm: BED.
Saturday ~ 2 am: (wakes up with stuffy nose and sore throat again) bed?
Saturday ~ 5 am: can i get myself iced coffee and hot tea before mom gets up? (answer: no)
Saturday ~ 6 am: (steps on scale) whoah.

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so, yeah. i definitely have stuff in my chest that will need to be coughed up. i like a hot shower for that, and i'll get one in a bit. the Tussin is helping; i took it in sips most of the day yesterday, and i did a bit of coughing, but not too much. my chest is definitely heavy, but less so today than yesterday, and i've been trying to remember to take deep breaths occasionally. i'm also taking some herbal antivirals and antibiotics, though, so-

my conclusions: i can see where this thing can easily lead to pneumonia. seriously, people, i hope you're vaccinated and get the head's up and your immune system is on alert for it. i'm pretty sure i have BA5 (just from the symptom pattern, my vaxx history, and hearing it's out there in NY now) and it's no joke. i mean - it started like a joke - all subtle insomnia and coy sore throat - but it quickly devolved to WWE body slam. now, i take full responsibility for deciding to let my body just have at it, fever-wise. it's how i was trained as a health care worker, and (since my body never spiked ANY sort of reaction to the vaxx) i was concerned enough to let my immune system really go to school on this variant. that was my choice, but it's also the one good point about having had it: now i KNOW my body has patterned Omicron, and i'm fairly certain it's seen the (current) worst version of Omicron (unless, uh, 2.75 on the Asian sub-continent has more surprises than we know).

it's out there, peeps. stay safe. peace!

chris_warrior: (blonde christmas baby)
x-post from LJ, after they FINALLY let me back in

well, i KNEW if i just kept trying, LJ would eventually wake up and let me back into this account. YAY PERSISTENCE!

so, as an update: new (two years old) SSD went BOOM. i lost a ton of crap - pictures, financial records, etc. it was an un-fun time. i know i can grab my pictures off FB eventually (glad i didn't finish deleting EVERYTHING) and i still have access to livejournal and DW to dl my blog again, and music is fairly easy to get back... but my D&D prep, my old fanfiction that didn't get uploaded, a lot of work stuff - it's all on two corrupted hard drives. i never should have deleted my backup to make a Windows boot disk; the damn thing didn't work anyway (laptop OR desktop).

anyway.

i've been tearing into the garden. i've completed my initial goal of getting rid of the grass in the side-back yard. through a lucky convergence of finally trying the haulers that will bring stuff from OCRRA (mulch, compost) and one of my clients working at a place where i can get awesome cardboard, i'm FINALLY making strides. the front righthand side yard (orchard) looks pretty damn good, and the back has been cleared, so that's a thing.

i also finally decided on new raised beds and bought a couple. this is their test run. but that was my "Silver" level goal. my "Gold" goal is to clean out the backyard again, and i'm maybe a quarter of the way through; it's a huge project. but with enough cardboard, all is possible.

my current fanfic is coming along. i'm currently working on the FIFTY-FIRST video! :O if you'd told me two years ago, i would learn to edit video and post over 50 videos this past year and a half, i would have told you you were nuts.

D&D was fun... until i lost all my extensive prep work. i still have what i uploaded to Roll20, and i have to run tonight, so we'll see how it goes. but i had a SHIT-TON of backstory and setting docs saved (timeline, NPC descriptions, etc) for the long-haul story, and it's all gone. i can haz a sad about that. then again, my group doesn't get to meet that often and we have THREE people who can DM, so maybe it's good that i don't settle in.

i finally got the flat on my bike fixed. i'd worked back up to my 20-mile ride, and the rear tire went flat, luckily less than a mile from home. i bought a couple new really good tires... but the bike rack i wanted to add is not going to work; my stem isn't long enough. which, sad face.

i've gotten VERY little house reno done. i had an extensive mental list for this summer (floors, painting walls, etc) but i think what i really need to do (given the energy crisis) is look into getting the damn furnace replaced... and i'm considering quotes for a heat pump. i do also need to do something about the downstairs bathroom. i almost don't care what it looks like right now, but i want to get the tub out and replace it with a shower stall so that i can stop worrying about mom stepping in and out of the tub.

also, feeding the stray cats because... i can't let them starve. feeding everything, really: birds, plants, cats. and yes, Brigid is doing well.

how are all of YOU?
chris_warrior: (blonde christmas baby)


that's about it. went to my first movie (Shang Chi) (it was awesome; highly recommended) with a friend i hadn't hung out with in like two years. got to use gift certificates a client had given me; had a great time. 10/10 would leave the house again.

you know, some year.

chris_warrior: (mystical)
i know i haven't been updating here as much, but life's been pretty on-par. not a lot of exciting stuff, not a lot of new stuff. just a weirdly-high amount of work, averaging 8-9 appts a week, working on the garden and trying to stay ahead of the weeds, and spending time plotting, writing, and editing my fanfic and chatting with various people online. some gaming. this weekend, i finally got to see Nephew again for the first time since Christmas 2019, and we watched the first two eps of Loki together since i've been DYING to talk about it with people and he hadn't seen it.

trying to shrug off trans-Atlantic crush. trying to get my butt back in gear with biking and walking and all The Fun Stuff, and get my sleep back on course.

it's life. it's happening.

but this morning i went up to greet the front maple tree because it seemed distressed about something (i thought maybe it was just the fact that it's been ignored in favor of the side yard, and wanted reassurance) and then it seemed like the other maple, to the side, was jealous, so i went to talk to it, and then a HUGE flying shape went over my head and i realized it was a pileated woodpecker. it flew from the front maple to a neighbor's tree.

now, the front maple is older, and has had a lot of dead branches of late, but i understand a pileated making it nervous; they tend to gut trees. but it's a process, here on this plane. everything moves in a complicated dance of growth and death and rebirth, and i'm trying very hard to honor that right now. i sent the woodpecker the assurance that it was OK, and reassured the maple that it would be all right - it has LOTS of years left - and we'll see what happens.
chris_warrior: (looking in)


realized i hadn't updated here in a while, so... here ya go.

(1) work: taking off for some reason. 9 appts last week, 9 appts this week; 6 already scheduled for next week.

(2) garden: starting to come back to life. almond is blooming. peach tree right behind it. pears, too. Russian comfrey, sage, chamomile, lots of stuff going green. flowers everywhere cause bulbs. all pruning done, but i haven't tried grafting yet, despite having scion wood.

(3) story and videos: going well. i have about 30 readers; about 6 people watching the videos. a lot of new people commented and gave me love, and that spurred me on for a bit. now i'm looking around like a person who ate the last of the cookies, going "Wut? No more?"

(4) crush: silencio. still holding my boundary; no Twitter, no stream-watching. just... generally noting his presence on the one group we share on Discord, and not letting it affect what i post or don't post. sadness is... better.

(5) sleep: a bit more. i think more exercise is helping. yay weather and bike-riding!

(6) Brigid: turned FIVE last month. i think she hates my work days, though. especially when they interfere with her getting to go O-U-T. taught her to 'lay down', which-

chris_warrior: (nature faery)


in addition to finishing up the renovations to my bedroom, i've been doing a lot of work on the gardens. new things:

Carmine Jewel tart cherry shrubs/dwarf trees (2). i installed these not that far from the pond, and intend to get rid of more grass on that side of the property this year. they actually came with cherries attached, so i'll get to see what they taste like this year... assuming the birds let me.

more lilacs: white, darker purple with a white edge, and a dark pink one. all dug in near the garage/edge of house. i need to finish moving the asparagus out of the bed, and then make sure i can get milkweed established back in the corner of the lot, so i can finish taking it out of the garage bed.

strawberries (??) expanding in the backyard. i WISH i thought these were actual full-size strawberries, but i think they're the wild small-berry-with-tons-of-seeds variety. i let them expand because i was hoping they were the remnants of the strawberry plants i put in ages ago, but now that they've grown to a 15x15 patch, and i don't have berries, i think they need to come out.

the raspberries need to be knocked back, like whoah.

the blackberries won't die. despite trying to take them out because they haven't flowered/appear to have mosaic virus, they keep coming back. gah.

the apples are doing well.

the oak i put in seems to be determined to keep trying to come back, after the rabbits unexpectedly decimated it.

the gladiolus i thought i moved from the back bed to the front... somehow rebounded. so now i have gladiolus in the front AND the back. but i want my raised bed open for planting vegetables *sigh*

in a similar vein, i need to do something about the garlic i've planted. it's achieved weed status.

chris_warrior: (blonde christmas baby)


in heavy contrast to the General World Crappiness, my holidays were quiet, warm, fun, and soaked in sugar. literally; i have been eating way too many sweets, and am trying tor rein myself in and go cold-turkey again today. stepping on the scale this morning for the first time in four days or so was quite the wake-up call.

i turned 47 without much fanfare. i saw Star Wars: The Last Jedi, with 5/7 of my family. i decorated my birthday cake (as per usual). we ate birthday cake. we played cards. it's almost as if my birthday/holiday routine has returned to its normal 'set point', just as it finally did after i left my ex-husband, and after Joshua died.

we did attend Mass on my birthday, as a family (well, minus one of my brothers, who isn't terribly religious and was fighting a cold to boot), because my mom couldn't get the Mass on my nephew's actual anniversary. honestly, we should be buying the 21st anyway, since my nephew was on life support for two days with no hope of coming back to us. nothing is going to take away the memory of that awful night thirteen years ago.

my elder nephew and i saved the world (Pandemic), first from a four-epidemic outbreak and then a very intense six-epidemic outbreak (which we won by the skin of our teeth). the family, in various combinations, played a lot of Pitch. i'm sad they didn't hang in one more day, but they stay at my brother's house and (i gather) 5 nights on his guest bed is enough.

i did spend most of my Christmas evening alone in my room (well, cuddled up with Brigid on my lap) watching movies and finishing a video game, but that was almost entirely due to my utter disinclination to watch NBA basketball with the rest of my family and not being tired of them. a tiny bit of it was wanting to finish the damn video game i was working through so i could start a new one.

now i'm gambling that bargaining with myself - that i can only play Dragon Age on days i don't consume sugar - will help get my addiction back under control. :D

hope everyone reading this had wonderful holidays; if they weren't wonderful in ALL aspects, i hope they were wonderful in SOME aspect. so much sun here today, though it's incredibly windy and i'm not sure about going to snowshoe (which was something i was considering). so, hey, the light is returning, at least. darkest day is behind us.

<3 <3 <3

chris_warrior: (the good fight)


our family cookout was yesterday, and i basically let myself eat whatever i wanted.

i felt a little hung-over this morning, even 'bleah'. but my weight hadn't fluctuated much, and i went right back onto BLE this morning.

so i think i'm going to be able to have a cheat day once in a while without blowing up my entire life. which is good.

chris_warrior: (Default)


i've arrived, stomach flu and all.

i can't say that this place looks much different than LJ, honestly.

are we sure the Russians don't own it, too?

chris_warrior: (mystical)


apparently that huge mouse i rousted out of the front-center middle bed had made herself absolutely at home in my garden. i accidentally uncovered a nest this morning; at least three baby mice tumbled out as i was weeding. i put them back as best i could, and tried to softly pack in some dirt and plants around them. they had fur already, but their eyes weren't open, so they have a couple weeks of nursing ahead. i hope she comes back, and that they get it. i can put off working on moving the raised beds until then.

in fact this may solidify my decision to add two more raised beds in the direction of the shed. :)

chris_warrior: (mystical)


through it didn't *quite* go the way i envisioned, i have now bicycled around Onondaga Lake. clockwise, which i feel was a good energetic choice for today.

the last leg being interrupted by the gates being closed, and strident amphitheater lackeys, and diverting myself onto 690, and then trying to cut through from Lakeland and ending up taking my 3.75 month-post-op ankle up and down nine feet of crushed stone as someone led me through their yard, the woods, the train tracks, and back onto the bicycle path...

since i'm home safe, that's all just a good story. :D and there were LOTS of hawks: at least three or four. or the same hawk, multiple times, following me. :)

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today, i gave directions (on Hiawatha, to a pair of walkers) and got directions (from the guy, above). i ate more amazing vegan buffalo chicken wings (YUM) and met up with Jen for a bit. i got to do the Fair two days with two different friends, even if only for a tiny stretch. i saw the Native American dancers yesterday with Natalie, and talked to one of the gladiolus judges today. i avoided being seen my ex-coworkers at the massage booth, but was sad to see the woman who always had the booth next to Elan is now gone. i hope she's OK. :(

two good days, though. :)

chris_warrior: (mystical)


i saw two Great Blue Herons, a red-tail (who flew right toward me and then right over my head) and a bunch of fishing birds who i couldn't identify - they looked too big to be gulls, but i don't know that they were raptors - on my sixteen-mile bicycle ride. and got home just before it got dark.

now, loud thunderstorm going through...

chris_warrior: (mystical)


anyone who's ever visited here knows our backyard is the Penn Station of animals; we've had everything from rodents to foxes to weasels to every sort of native bird. we feed, that's part of it. but we separate feeding the larger birds (late fall through winter into late spring) and the hummingbirds (late spring through summer into late fall) because they really don't play well together. the hummingbirds get very agitated when anything violates their territory... even other hummingbirds that they don't like.

so a weird thing has been happening: a baby Woolly Woodpecker has decided she likes sugar water. it's the strangest thing to watch a species who is supposed to be eating tree insects sit on the hummingbird feeder and suck down sugar. for weeks i figured she was eating the ants that climbed the pole (and maybe she is), but she's definitely sticking her beak into the tiny hole and drinking the nectar.

again, you can imagine the cloud of angry hummingbirds that results from this invasion.

so we'll let her sit there for awhile, but eventually we'll yell out the window. she used to fly away, but lately she's gotten inured to it, and we have resorted to knocking on the sill, and even going out to the feeder to chase her away.

this morning, my mother was standing at the window and calling "Now, you know that's not for you. C'mon, it's time to leave. I know, hummingbirds, I'm sorry. Just chase her away!" then she turned to me, realizing i had heard her, and said "She just won't leave!"

now we've starting keeping a water pistol around because Brigid has discovered window screens in a Big Way. i grabbed it and went into the kitchen, saying "OK, well, I'll get her to go," and i fired at her out the window.

the Woolly paused, looked at the window, slid around the sugar feeder until the reservoir was between her and window, and went right back to eating.

i looked at my mom and burst out laughing. so did she.

and our laughter scared away the woodpecker.

chris_warrior: (mystical)


Brigid confirmed her magical status last night.

i really didn't want to believe my laptop charger was dying. given everything, it was horrible timing. when it completely failed to work last night, and no amount of jiggling, taking various pieces in and out of sockets, or prayer would get it to charge the laptop, i felt a wave of despair, since being able to access videos and LJ has been a large part of my sanity retention these last few weeks.

i thought i remembered possibly still having another power cord from a previous laptop squirreled away in the Spare Oom, but EVERYTHING that had been clogging up my bedroom (that a kitten might get stuck in, or knock over, or break) ended up in the Spare Oom when my sister and mom kitten-proofed. i didn't think i had a chance in hell of finding it, even if it existed.

it was still worth a try, so i slipped into the Spare Oom and closed the door quickly again; we'd been keeping the door closed to keep Brigid out and safe. as i carefully crawled around, slowly moving things, she sat on the other side of the door and cried (which is her M.O. when i go into another room and shut the door). it didn't shock me when i couldn't find the old laptop or the charger; i was fairly resigned to not having my computer for a few days. and i opened the door to try to sneak back out-

-and Brigid, of course, ran by me and into the Spare Oom.

ever try to catch a kitten with a broken ankle? yeah, it's fun. i managed to fish her out from under one of the beds, only to have her dash off to the other side of the room, under piles of books, around boxes of clothes and other stuff, waiting any second for her to bring something crashing down on top of her. i finally just sat and called to her and she sort of came out and peeked at me, but then joyfully scampered off into the debris again, entranced by all the new stuff. i finally got a hand on her and tried to toss her out of the room, but i couldn't get the door closed quickly enough and she dashed in again. i was near tears when i saw she was playing with/chewing a cord hanging off the old wingback chair (playing with and chewing on cords is one of her more annoying habits).

it was my old laptop cord, and it had the same adapter as my current laptop.

chris_warrior: (mystical)


i've hiked The Cliff Trail (the faery trail) in Harpswell a half dozen times this season already. each time it seems like i've had better and better luck with wildlife (and 'other') visitations.

a few trips ago, it was the red squirrels running along the tree branches to about head height and staring speculatively at me from 5-10 feet away, as if they were debating whether or not to jump onto my head, and what would happen if they did.

earlier this week, a friend and i were hanging out at the Overlook, and - as ravens or crows flew beneath us - i was explaining that i'd never yet seen bald eagles while i was hiking this trail. a few minutes later, across the water, a pair of bald eagles began to surf the air currents; one even did a fly-by, maybe a hundred or so feet above our heads. ("I want a million dollars!")

today, during my pre-Beltane hike, there were birds, squirrels, another bald eagle, AND a chunk of quartz rock broke off in my hand when i went to pick up some birch bark to complete the faery house i was repairing in the far building site.

i know i didn't come home alone.

(x-posted to facebook)

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chris_warrior: (ecstatic)


just wanted to pop in and say that i got Dave out to hike today! *and the crowd goes wild* he did his two hours at the Dolphin, and we went for a forty minute or so hike off Basin Point Rd. SUCH a gorgeous day! it's clouded over now, but it was beautifully sunny this morning, and the ocean off the point was lovely to look at. then we came back into Brunswick and had gelato, and he went off to school... only to call me a half hour later to tell me that it's Patriot's Day and he didn't have school and he'd driven to Portland for nothing. d'OH! i knew i should have encouraged him to play hooky!

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the week home was good. i stopped at WEBS (the yarn store) to pick up yarn for the cable sweater i want to try once i've finished mom's socks and the mittens i started, and the non-cable sweater i need to try first, and... so, yes, i have a yarn problem. i spent Sunday with my family (they were watching The Masters golf tournament), made jelly for my mother on Monday (straining raspberries through a sieve to get out the seeds is a PITA, btw), and went to the Syracuse Bernie Sanders rally with a few of my friends on Tuesday. :) we were so into the "rally experience", we didn't even stop to take a selfie!

i worked on Wednesday, gave blood and had coffee with Natalie and worked and got a massage on Thursday, worked on Friday (and processed more raspberries; jam this time), then worked (and did a long walk with Jen K at Beaver Lake) on Saturday. the drive back on Sunday through balmy weather was easy; i listened to my book and stopped for coffee with Hope midway.

LOTS of friend-time and good work this past week, but happy to be home!

chris_warrior: (mystical)


when you shrug a hoodie on over your tie-dye T-shirt and head downstairs, pulling your Bernie bumper stickers and your Kripalu summer catalog out of the mail on the way to climb into your hybrid car, and drive to an essential oil presentation...

... you *might* be a hippie.

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reposted from facebook. feel free to add your own below.

chris_warrior: (blonde christmas baby)
March 1st - homeopathy presentation at Midcoast Bodyworkers
March 2nd - Sanders rally in Portland! extraordinary.
March 3rd - saw foreclosed house in Dresden
March 5th - client and canvassing neighborhood for Bernie
March 6th - mass and caucus
March 7th - Eucharistic adoration and went into Portland with Dave to hit Kohls
March 11th - drove to Syracuse, started laundry, stayed overnight, packed up again
March 12th - drove to Buffalo. Dave played poker with guys, i went over to Canadian side to view the lit-up Falls with Heather (first time i'd seen this)
March 13th - slept in, hung out, CAH, escape room (which was "set" in turn of the century London and was truly cool), bowling, Fro-yo, CAH (hilarious Dave pictures are up on FB)
March 14th - drove to Canada, walked Falls, went back to our gorgeous suite at the Fallsview Radisson, slipped into our jacuzzi tub for two, sipped champagne, and had lots of cuddles.
March 15th - drove out to St. Catherine's/Niagara-on-the-Lake area and had diner breakfast, drove up around NotL and went to a few wineries, met some very cool people at Palantine Hills (but wines were too dry) so took in Konzelmann and Sunnybrook (pear wine!); drove home (took a while as i got us lost in Rochester)
March 16th - March 19th: clients. also one-price fro-yo on Thursday. hung out with Natalie and Rick after their appointment on Saturday, then hung out with Jen and Ryan. went home and started packing.
March 20th - drove back to Maine
chris_warrior: (personal stuff)


it's interesting to me how - as i've aged past a safe pregnancy, but not totally out of the ability to *be* pregnant - my view on abortion has changed. i wish i'd gotten here sooner, been able to see the other side of the equation sooner, but i was so impacted by the idea of 'babies being torn apart' that i couldn't really see how torn apart the _mothers_ must be. even during my (extensive) education, through biochemistry and pathology and embryology, i was always slightly nauseated by the idea of something that could become a person, an innocent, being aborted. then again, i've also been a vegetarian for half my life, and to me killing _anything_ is a psychic issue.

now, from 45, the idea of someone, *anyone* else, telling me what i can and can't do with my body feels like ginormous chutzpah. the amount of medical complications both i and any child i might bear, with me at this age, far out-weigh my giving a damn about what anyone else thinks. from this older vantage point it is a lot easier to realize that any health issue that causes a woman to consider aborting late-term is almost certainly a serious one, any decision made late-term a life-shattering one. this entire Zika mess has also added an entirely new complication in many women's lives.

so, yes, once again i stand with Sanders.

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